FOR THE FIRST TIME

Assalamualaikum

korang apa khabar?

hmmm...

:)

really miss u guys a lot..

seems like u guys enjoy ur campus life..

me??

still enjoy it

but sometimes it hard for me

and for the first time..

me..myself..

being in that condition..

i don't why

why i can be like that..

such a loser...

for the first time

i truly fall in love to someone

someone that i don't deserve to be with

for the first time

i defeat to my own self

my own feelings

really worst

BUT

still...im trying to overcome it

and 

still im in love with him

for a year...

yups...

1 year i hide my own feeling

it feels like

ARRGGGGHHHH

its hard

he is someone who have a bright smile

sweet

kind-hearted

soft-hearted

a bit talkative

easy-going

best buddy

someone that u can hold to

NEVER see he get angry

really an ideal man for me

and i feel..

i dont deserve it

but still have flaws

he is someone who easily distracted

please don't let him distract while driving

he is someone who is forgetful

always forget where he put his stuff

and then need to buy it back

he is someone who always blame himself

for things that he dont do

he will let the blame on him

he is someone who need somebody to support him

and i hope i will that somebody

hmmm

but still im not deserve it

but still

i will pray for it

even though

he will not be the one

i hope he will be

my friend

-NHH-